These red roses are keeping me going. The thought of them, the smell of them. I am working so hard at the moment,concerned about aging parents, circumstances of children I work with, and am tired. I cannot work full-time for years on end. I envy those that can. I extend understanding and compassion to those who have to and have absolutely no choice. My congratulations and joy to those who would go crazy without full-time employment, particularly outside the home. We are all different.Twenty-five years of back-pain and sciatica is taking it's toll. It affects my ability to take the many full-time positions in these schools that I am offered. I have to be careful. I do get bone-achingly tired, and it is a secret hidden physical battle, because I love the work, and the students I work with. I work with students of all ages with disabilities in special schools and high schools - beautiful, challenged,wonderful children, pain-challenged so much more than I could possibly imagine. So..anyway, I have to think of coping mechanisms on this last week to the holidays....the home-run of a stint of full-time work...and all I can think of is the busy bee burying itself in that divine fragrance of a deep red rose... and on my way to work, if I imagine being in the very centre of these divine crimson roses, breathe in deep, in the midst of the frantic traffic, the unimaginative housing that surrounds these schools, I feel better.
I wish the entire world were planted with more of these roses. Why wouldn't you want to plant them.. I could get lost in them. Truly I could . Breeeaaathhhe.
I wish the entire world were planted with more of these roses. Why wouldn't you want to plant them.. I could get lost in them. Truly I could . Breeeaaathhhe. Deep. Not long now to the hols. Mum and Dad are thinking of putting the family home on the market around August. Busy times ahead.. Oh, and what do I do to take time for myself? Spend time in Nature. Meandering, observing - that's my style. Makes a change from week- to- week purposeful and strong . What is your "respite"?
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A lovely post, with both sadness and beauty. Your refuge in nature is exactly right, in my book; my allotment was my lifeline when I worked. And working with the most vulnerable gives us a lot, but also takes its toll; all the more reason to look after ourselves.
My mother suffered greatly with sciatica, until she had acupuncture; if you haven't tried it, do think about it - it certainly won't do you any harm. Meantime, keep losing yourself in those wonderful roses!
Everyone is tired at the moment. we all need a holiday I think. I agree I couldn't work fulll tim either and feel sorry for those that have to.
Roses for respite, I agree with that too. I have a lot out in my garden and looking at them and smelling them too gives me so much pleasure. I hope you enjoy your hols.
As a retired teacher I recognise those symptoms - if one does a good job then by the end of the summer term one is drained completely - and that is without the sciatica you obviously suffer with. Do have a good long break and contemplate those exquisite roses some more.
Best wishes to you Pam. I hope you get some time to relax a little, although the concerns of aging parents don't give you much holiday. Bless you for caring for them and for the students. Those roses are real beauties. I have about ten hybrid tea roses that somehow come back every year from being buried for months under ice and snow. They are almost ready to bloom! Hang in there.
Oh, dearie, I do hope you can find solace and comfort and never have to work more than you feel you can. Oy.
For me, careerwise, online teaching has been a boon. I'm very much not cut out for "hitting it hard" five days a week, so being able to set my own hours and work places much of the time has made being a wage earner more palatable.
As far as spirit revival, I'm remembering more and more of late that music feeds me.
So thoughtful and pensive today, Pam. It reveals many heretofore hidden layers of you. Thank you for showing this part of yourself to us.
Love
Annie
As we get older it's strange how important nature becomes.... I would never have thought of getting solace in a rose, but like you I do.
And i understand the bone wearieness it's just debilitating.
If I was there I'd take you out to lunch for a really good girly laugh and cry together.
Which I know would do us both good.
huge hugs
xx
sometimes computers are just out to get me!!!
so the comment from ushi was really me!
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I can empathize with you Pam, as my back isn't the best with its Harrington rod (though I had surgery two years ago to reattach it).
Being out in nature with roses is a start in the right direction. Have you tried Reiki? That may help you with your pain. I have it done to my knees, and it works wonders.
Oh Pam, I am terribly sorroy to hear about your back pain andd sciatica. I had sciatica, tem,porarily during my pregnancy and I tell you, I still rmemeber the pain after these many years. Sciatica compounded by back pain! How awful. I can see why a full time job will be difficult. Can you even tolerate sitting?
I hope you feel better soon. I wish you well.
Oh I can identify with your feelings. Thankfully I have retired, but I can remember those bone-aching days of working with children. The days are long and exhausting. Hope your holiday comes soon... and I send good thoughts regarding your parents transition. It is a stressful time.
Enjoy the roses & other things of nature. As you said, Breathe...
Greeting from Texas
Those roses are gorgeous, just gorgeous. For me, it's gardens or the sea. Either or theother, no order.
My respite is my art and my garden. That rose is something else...it's like it's made out of velvet!! You just want to 'pet' it, like it's a kitten or something!
Really nice. So sorry you have all this pain.
I can imagine the perfume from that velvet looking rose. I've never had any success with growing roses, too humid I think or my fingers are not green enough. Hope you are finding time to spend observing nature during the school break *!*
back pain is just the pits.. it can drive you insane, I give you hugs xoxo
acupuncture has helped me alot with mine as has pilates... not sure if you have tried those..
be gentle with your back and your self xoxo
I, too, can not work full time anymore. Physically I am not able to, which means I live very ... uh ... simply is maybe the best word.
So sorry to hear about your sciatica - ouch! That hurts!! Do you have an osteopath who can work on you?
Sending healing rose colored energy in your direction.
Lovely roses! I have three plants that were given as a gift after my mother died but they lack fragrance.
And yes, full time work sucks but it pays the mortgage! At least I appreciate the weekends.
Sorry to hear about the back. I have the same problem now and then but a good physio session or two gives me relief.
As for my refuge? In summer, definitely the garden. In chilly Sydney Winters? Frankly right here in front of the PC early in the morning with the dog at my feet and the house all quiet!
...thanks for comments and concern everyone. Yes I have gained relief from various things mentioned, so thank-you for the very kind and welcome suggestions. Onwards we go....most of you I gather,know what it's like, at least some time or other. Holidays soon - yay!xxx
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